Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Happy birthday to u...

Dear shi hui,

it's your birthday today.. I would love to wish you happy birthday and give you a big hug and a kiss...

Its hard not to think about u. It's difficult...

Im not sure whether do you still think of me or not.. u had awesome birthday.. u are getting to know new guys.. trying to get close with them..

My heart ache when i see your posting on other people's post.. where you hardly even respond to anything that i have posted...
u seems to be so happy.. and im at the total opposite....

i have not been happy since the day we broke off.. 22nd of August 2012..

ah... the only time that i was really happy were the time that we spent together in bangkok... movie at pavilion...

i remember you saying something. u said.. one is my so called bf.. another is the person that you love.
i love the sound of it.. i wished to always stay in that wonderland..

i love the way you hold me.. the way u hug me.. the way u look at me

the way u move on bed.. the way u try to snuggle wif me on the first night.. the way u tricked me in the game...

i love the way u smile.. i love the way u kissed my nose when i was drunk.. i love the way u grab my arms and say that u love it... and i love the way u play piano...

i love every moment that we have spent together..



im not sure what am i thinking now.. but i do miss u.. a lot.. what about u?

anyway.. Happy Birthday :)


Wednesday, April 07, 2010

i hate me...

in your life time.. i m quite sure that there are times that you really hate yourself... really regret what you have done.. (these are normally called the mines of life... u step on it.. and BOOM)


it's really hard to admit own's fault.. and it's even harder to hear it from someone's mouth...
it's like.. after you admit that you yourself have some problem to someone.. and the person turns around and say.. EH.. u know u got this problem...

this is one of the worst feelings to feel... i do feel stupid when someone do that to me.. didn't they hear that i just confessed that i have some problems during the past few minutes???

and sometimes... they say it as thought the fault is all yours.. ALL YOURS....
hmm i admit that i have faults.. but i m definitely not wrong for the particular incident.. but usually people just relate it together.. or they just sounded like relating both issues together.. (i do not know.. probably as usual.. i m wrong)

anyway.. what i wanted to share is.. when someone admit their fault/problem.. DO NOT REPEAT by saying.. EH. do u think that the problem lies with u?

It suck!!!!!!!


end note... i will adapt and learn and change.. oh well.. like they say.. the only constant in life is change.. without change, life will not improve.. so i do believe change is always good.. no matter what's the changes are.. there is sure some silver lining on every dark cloud.. and always... silver lining is the most significant thing compared to whole patch of dark cloud.


Tuesday, April 06, 2010

silence is gold.. silence is virtue...

everyone want to hear what they want to hear.. what they like to hear..

when they hear something that they dun like.. or they dun used to hear... most probably they just intercept you immediately without properly listen to what you want to deliver.. then start to defend..

then someone will get pissed and walk away...
what's the odd of getting this treatment 2 times in 1 hour..

i shall not speak.. not comment.. not advice.. just listen...

on a side note.. unable to know the expression of opposite party does means that on a 99% chance that you are steeping on a land mine... BOOOOM!!


Monday, December 28, 2009

another lesson learned

alot of ppl says... the effect of alcohol let u forget about ur problem momentarily...

TRUE but NOT TRUE...

the effect of alcohol actually amplifies your sorrow when you are not drunk enough.. i have tried drowning the problems with alcohol.. i have tried mixing it.. no effect.. erm.. cant say so.. have effect. but the effect was amplifying it...

so.. lesson learned.. when u wanna drown ur sorrows.. make sure u have plenty of it to drink.. tequilla helps...


Sunday, November 15, 2009

the long awaited day...

the long awaited day has come..

hakunamatata is going on backpack to hanoi + yunnan from 15-nov-2009 to 28-nov-2009...

yippie!!!


Friday, October 16, 2009

building in progress - 1

i have been always wanted to start on a workout program.. but a workout program that looks reasonable is not easy to come by...

but recently.. i have found a book... called The Body Sculpting Bible.. which teaches you various exercise to strengthen and build various muscles...

and it has a 12 week intensive training program.. i tried it today.. gosh.. it's intense...



so this is the summary of my workout today.. was supposed to finish up 6 superset where each superset consist of 2 exercise of 3 sets each with minimum 12 reps...

gosh.. i only managed to finish 3 superset and part of superset 4... i gave up.. body could not take it anymore...

okay.. gotta try harder on next session. which is in 2 days time...


Thursday, June 18, 2009

an inspiration...

i felt really inspired whenever i see this clip after a few years apart...

Team Hoyt... an inspiring story of an Amazing father and son...

hope this will inspire you as well... :)